Here's some promises to myself.

-Never have a drinking or drug problem.
-Be there for my children, especially in their adolescence.
-Plant a garden.

all your fault

I don't know anymore about mother. Today I said "even when she's sober she fucks things up." I sound pretty shitty but without her, there would be one less thing to worry about. You've had plenty of second chances to be in my life. You're priorities are all fucked up. Life is far from normal when you're around. It's because of you that I don't have a little sister who lives with me. I don't have the ability to be a full-time sister because you fucked up. You fucking bitch. You selfish fucking slut. You're only connection with the family was for money and cigarettes. you didn't give a shit when i visited you in those annoying fucking rehabs. You'll be nothing forever. I don't think you'll ever recover for good, I just try to give a shit because I'd feel bad if you died. Just go fucking die already so we can all get on with our lives.