visited my mother today. it has never been this good for this long. i have such high hopes for her. for once in my life i'm taking advice from her and not just doing the opposite of what she did to succeed. such a good feeling to have a visit where i'm not holding back tears or something hurtful to say. she's been a role model to her peers too which is awesome to hear and see.

when i was born, maybe my father never loved my mother. maybe my life didn't consist of heavy planning. maybe i was just a catalyst for a better family. but good things do come out of shitty situations even if its been a shitty situation for 18 years. i would never appreciate a moment like this at any younger of an age. bad things happen and bad people can turn into good people and allow good things to happen in their lives.

shes a beautiful woman.