like a sad fucking puppy

I hate myself. I'm doing everything for the wrong reasons and I can't control it. I've tried before and it just doesn't work. It's all your fucking fault too. I'm blaming this on you, I said no but it happened anyway and now there's some annoying attachment that means everything to me and nothing to you. I can't stand it anymore. I got let out of my cage and now I'm forcing myself to get back in. Constantly going back and forth.